when I am called upon to shop, as I said, or when at times she (my wife) asks me to wash out her nylons or a slip. She knows I have quite a few feminine accomplish- ments, for I cook, sew a little, clean the house and do washing. And, speaking of sewing, not long ago she asked me if I would sew a shoulder strap on a slip for her, which I did. And yet she objects to my TVism. The way I see it, I can be as feminine as all get out in some ways, but should never want to wear appropriate clothes.

Speaking of appropriate clothes. When she was working days a few years ago and I was on nights and the kids were in school, for nearly a year I was in fem- me clothes for six hours a day, five days a week. I took care of the house then, and she would never under- stand how much I enjoyed it--getting the house work done in a house-dress and apron and then changing into one of my nice dresses, or a skirt and blouse, and then relaxing with a book and music on the stereo. It was fun.

My children, of course, do not know of my TVism, and I pray that they never will. I would not want my son to be as I have been, and I pray again that he never will be. I know too well the guilt, the shame, the suffering, the loneliness and the misunderstanding which are a part of this life. It took me a long time to accept myself, and to understand that I was not the only male in the world who liked to enjoy a bit of fem- inine living. It is only in the past year that I have ad- mitted that I am a TV to anyone, and the first person to be told was our admirable editor of this magazine. One day soon, I hope to meet a fellow TV right here in this city, for I badly need an understanding friend with a background similar to my own.

Coming to the end of this not-so- unusual tale, I love extra-long nylons, the full leg type; my admirat- ion is about equally divided between pettipants and bloomers (I don't care much for briefs); I have a torso bra which is always a thrill to wear, and I prefer a skirt and blouse with long sleeves (to hide the tattoos) to a dress. I love high heeled shoes, open at front and back. I would love to have a wardrobe far more exten-

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